At a very young age about 8 or 9 I started to question why am I different, am I different?, where do I come from, what am I?, why do I feel like I Am before I ever was...
All my life, since about 9 years old I felt that It was something about me, something that I had been given so much of, at times I felt all by myself when deep inside I knew I wasnt alone. With such intuition and amazing grace and favor, I didn't fully understand what I was or what I had or how I can go about with it ordinary, but I knew it was powerful within me holding me everyday of my life. Allowing me to be decisive, attentive, discrete, competent, concerned, sophisticated, spacial and somewhat persuasive at a very young age. I have been very well blessed I felt it, but I couldn't acknowledge God faithfully at the time because I questioned, I doubted myself, I worried myself to saddness; because I thought I wasn't normal, I wasn't to the point where I came to be oderly structured and tame by the Grace of God, At least thats what I thought growing up how could have understood what next.
My childhood was remarkable, you know without all the "flaws and ahwws", I tell it too you straight. Every family has it times of troubles, especially black families you know it's like going through a drama movie, action and alittle suspense; but through it all I knew Grace from Him is what kept me loved and safe from the enemies harm. Before I knew Him he known me.... Jesus Christ and The Helper, The spirit of Truth within me...
Growing up I had lost my way and didn't come to settle with understanding because I did understand that understanding never ends and things can keep your mind going and going. As I grew up alittle being so young, powerful and authority stricken I wasn't at ease like I should of been, I was dangerous to the ones I love, dangerous to myself, a danger to everyone that I came encounter with because I did'nt allow my mind to rest my flesh, and I couldn't control such a mighty and powerful heart at an babe age or my sound judgement, really people were dangerous to me, see but I believed that is what enabled the spirit of truth in me early and the helper to me because i was born with this Zeal for correction and Righteousness, the things of our King.
And because I wasn't in tune with the full power of authority that Christ has manifested within my spirit, yet, I persuaded it and didn't understand what I had or why I was born with this ability, and when I used this force I was confused about it because it frightend me alittle bit cause it carried so much passion and strength I was not able to grasp it all, I was more overwhemled by it. I needed to be informed more on just who I was. I didn't have it rooted in yet, I was using this ability like none I have ever seen, this blessing gift that came from Christ through his word in his love. I mean strength like a herd of lions, my love was powerful but gentle, loyal, I passionatley moved for love, understanding, I showed compassion to all. When God moves me, I move; with everything under the sun. Love&Lamp;Heart
So as I began to move through chapter in this lifetime and Christ was with me through it all and in everything watchmen or watchful, saved me everytime from the enemies hand, oh i couldnt number .Thank You God. As I look back in time, it's like watching TV with {No static} I mean I surfed through channels in life; seeing the lawlessness and lewdness of the world, it was like the Lord showed me and told what I gonna have to become in order to surpass it and save others and myself.
You ever watch Cspan, uhmm BET, CNN, ESPN, Gangland, Police shows, and neighborhood crime thats what I was around, with all the killing and raising of bandannas and fighting, drinking and selling dope, shooting and hanging out...hanging real tough with other with the same distruction, it was a life with no end but a long road ahead and soon a brick wall.
Being that I have this blessed gift from God it made me safe, it made me respected, in a sense because the enemy knew what authority I had, what power would soon to be manifested within me, he knew who I had in me, before I even knew. Others seen the light in me,This protective shield on my soul that i had been bought and claimed by Jesus Christ and did not belong to no one nor the devil and even if I didn't understand it God made it known in me. And with that was everyone I came in subject with was under my foot; see that how i thought then, that everything was under my feet if anit do me no good. The Lord says that he has put everything from wild beast in the field, creatures of this world under our feet and Christ made known that very early to me. Because that is what strenghten me, what saved me, what kept me from being destroyed by my destroyers, not because I ask that or enforced it, but because My Lord and Savior King Jesus Christ made clear that I was His he enforced it, that I belong too him, even if I did'nt know, so what was working through him was working in me. The Spirit of God who helps when were down not just up. If the you had everything together you would need the Spirit of God the Helper, and if you knew everything you would need the Spirit of Truth..... Blessed be Jesus Christ.
John 15:16
" You did not choose Me but I chose You and appointed You that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should remain, and that whatever you ask the fathers in my name he may give you.
Romans 8:28-29
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called accordin got His prupose". 29- For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.
Amen.
1st John 4:5
"You are children of God, little children have overcome them(the things in the world)Because he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world".
